Triggers

I'm tired today... I stayed up too late watching Monday Night Football.  It was worth it since we beat the pants off the Packers, as expected, but still - being tired is not a good thing for me.

You might have heard of the acronym HALT - it stands for Hungry, Angry, Lonely, Tired.   And it's used to say - watch out for any or all of those things as they can be triggers to old behavior.   Tired is definitely a big trigger for me.  When I'm tired, I am more inclined to delve into self-pity and wonder why the world is not stopping for me.  Being tired lends itself to being lazier where everything is concerned: work, interacting with people, my food plan.   I know on days when I haven't gotten enough rest the night before, I have to be extremely diligent. 

Where my food is concerned, I have to really be careful and make sure I use the food scale and measuring cups and make wise choices.  I'm more apt to pick things that are more traditionally comfort-type foods when I'm not well rested and that's not always a safe place to be in for me.  I need to remember that no matter what I eat, it's not going to change the fact that I went to bed too late and am walking around like a zombie!

When interacting with people on days like these, I have to be on guard of my sharp tongue.  I've got a razor sharp wit that has been known to cut people in two in the past.  I choose to keep those thoughts to myself today instead of verbalizing them - for the most part! Restraint of tongue and pen are the watchwords for me today.  It's like - if I don't feel good, I don't want any one to feel good, damn it!  Pretty mean and self-centered, no?  But it's the truth.

And now if only I had some practical solutions on being more concerned with my work habits on tired days.  Ahhh, this whole journey is a process - I'll get there one day.  :-)